Exposed

Needless to say, this post pregnancy process has been much different than my three prior. Usually I can sit indiscriminately in a chair and quietly breast feed my child with little curiosity (after day three) from my other children. This time has been a very different experience! While the twins were in the NICU I needed to pump 20 minutes every two hours. Then when they came home they were still very small and inexperienced nursers. Which meant a 10 minute feeding turned into a 30 minute feeding each and then I needed to pump immediately after to keep my milk supply up because they still were not good at it. All of this meant Mom was exposed the majority of the last two months. With all this in mind, my children have become, interested in...Well...I will just give you examples (there were more than a few examples, but some, I have been prohibited from sharing). Phoenix was squeezing and poking at herself while asking why she didn't look like Mommy even though she was a girl and why she couldn't get the milk to come out. Avery was found, with all the pumping equipment trying to pump (she wasn't the first child to try either) while she yelled "I got milk! See Mommy I got milk!" (picture to follow as soon as I get around to downloading it). To this point, the question may become have I permanently damaged my obviously sponge like children who looked on all summer while Mommy with machine like determination took care of the daunting task of making sure my two youngest were fed? Some may say definitely! but as for me I am leaning towards the more positive of the two which is that I have beautifully curious children who want nothing more than to be like their Mom and I think I am okay with that!